Part of Me.

"Days like this I want to drive away
Pack my bags and watch your shadow fade
You chewed me up and spit me out
Like I was poison in your mouth
You took my light, you drained me down
That was then and this is now
Now look at me

This is the part of me that you're never gonna ever take away from me, no
This is the part of me that you're never gonna ever take away from me, no
Throw your sticks and stones
Throw your bombs and your blows
But you're not gonna break my soul
This is the part of me that you're never gonna ever take away from me, no

I just wanna throw my phone away
Find out who is really there for me
'Cause you ripped me off, your love was cheap
Was always tearing at the seams
I fell deep and you let me drown
But that was then and this is now
Now look at me

This is the part of me that you're never gonna ever take away from me, no
This is the part of me that you're never gonna ever take away from me, no
Throw your sticks and stones
Throw your bombs and your blows
But you're not gonna break my soul
This is the part of me that you're never gonna ever take away from me, no

Now look at me, I'm sparkling
A firework, a dancing flame
You won't ever put me out again
I'm glowing, oh woah oh
So you can keep the diamond ring
It don't mean nothing anyway
In fact you can keep everything
Yeah, yeah
Except for me"

Pertama kali mendengar lagu ini, yang terbersit di pikiran saya adalah lagu ini 'saya banget'. Lagu ini seperti menyiratkan girl power yang sudah disakiti sekian kali tapi dia masih bisa berdiri dan kuat menjalani hari-harinya. Ya nggak jauhlah dari kondisi saya sekarang ini, hahaha minta ditimpuk saya ini. 

Ya karena kondisi saya sangat jauh lebih baik, jauh dari apa yang saya bayangkan sendiri. Saya bisa tersenyum jauh lebih lebar lagi sekarang, bisa tersenyum dan tertawa ketika ada teman yang nyinyir mengungkit cerita itu kembali, bisa menunjukkan bahwa kondisi saya jauh lebih baik tanpa dia. Saya bisa lebih mengenali diri saya, saya bisa meningkatkan kualitas diri saya juga. Toh yang di pikiran saya sekarang adalah bagaimana saya menikmati hidup ini. Terimakasih ya, karena saya sama sekali tidak menyesali keputusan yang telah kita buat. Mungkin memang terasa berat ketika harus membuat keputusan itu, tapi menjalaninya saya hanya harus chin up dan tetap melangkah ke depan. Menengok masa lalu hanya seperlunya, hanya sebagai pengingat agar tidak melakukan kebodohan seperti itu lagi.

Well ya, the grass is greener here after watching you with my tears :)

"People change. Feelings change. It doesn't mean that the love once shared wasn't true and real. It simply just means that sometimes when people grow, they grow apart." -(500) Days of Summer